Well, it is two days after Christmas, and I am back in the office. There are 8 other people here. It is great because I can get stuff done without people bugging me, or I can goof off and no one knows :)

I also got a Christmas present from the craziest of my salespeople. It was a $50 giftcard to Victoria's Secret. I thanked her, and I appreciate it, but I hope she realizes she has not bought my soul. She tends to give gifts like she is paying your randsom, and you will be endebted to her forever. Yeah, been there, done that, and none of the t-shirts fit. I will take my giftcard and go home, thank you.

The fiancee is in Florida for the rest of the week. He was gone Saturday - Tuesday, got home and turned right back around to go work. It sucks but I know he has to do it. The worst part was that we spent our holidays apart AGAIN - mostly because this is my last year that I can refuse to go to his parents' house just because I don't want to go, and I can do that becuase we are not married. He didn't even want to go home. On one level I think that it is really sad that people can be so manipulative and controlling that they drive those they love away. On the other hand, they are pretty psycho, and they are at the age where they will be damned if they change, so I don't want to be around them either. In all of our pre-marital classes/counseling, the issue always comes back to his mother. She is absolutely going to be the biggest issue of our marriage, and the worst part is that she has another good 20 - 25 years left in her. I'm going to go straight to hell for pondering her death already.

I'm an admin!!

People seriously, unbelievably frustrate me. Some of the members of the sales team that I support do not realize that I am paid peanuts as an admin. I am not paid enough to even think about work when I am not in the building. Yet what did I get this weekend? A phone call on Saturday morning from one of the salespeople! And it is because the person is an ass! Our company just instituted direct deposit about a month ago, in part due to the pig-like squealing of this salesperson. However, she is now one of the last people to sign up for it. So she waits until she has 10 weeks of expenses, approximately $10,000 worth. Then she sends them all in and demands a turn around of two days on them, which includes me overnighting them to her. The big problem was that I forgot to send them on Thursday, so they had to go out Friday, meaning her check would not be deposited until today, because you can bet your sweet bippy that I did not pay extra to have it Saturday delivered. She calls me becuase she hasn't gotten it yet. Well, of course not. We're trying to control costs! Stupid.

I had the worst dream last night. I dreamed that the fiancee got tired of me. We had a huge fight and he told me that he was going to go out and play the field more and that I had been a nag and I was too controlling. I asked him how long he had been feeling that way, and he said for most of the time that we were together, and I could not understand that. I said you've been telling me you want me as your wife. Was that a lie? And he said that he had been lying the whole time. It was so disturbing that I woke up from the dream and had to wake him up to ask him if he still loved me. Dreams can be so messed up.

First Shot

Well, I'm new at this, but it seemed like a great way to have an outlet for some of the frustrations of my day. During my boring, sit on my butt work day, my escape is the internet. It will be nice to have a forum to work with. That's all for now, but I am excited to explore the possibilities!